The Pendant of Mór- chapter 4: Hypoxia

Josephine. Pic taken in Sonov, Czech Republic, 2009

Afraid to give in, afraid to begin

Begin where I know it can end

My breath is yours, you witness all my acts

I'm the sculpture made by your mind

The words in your head are carved in stone

The stifling you makes me feel alone

It's time to face the facts

You pull the strings, I'm a puppet from day One

Now I must face the fear, embrace what is near

Is my soul already sold?

Sitting by this window, my only portal to another life

The windows frame confines my dreams

Stiffens my being, narrows my mind

This airless room makes me collapse

Downstairs a mendacious silence

This softens off al of our truths

My only Father, where lies what belongs to me?

Give me air and set me free!

Experience did not shape me

Only your laws could have made me

Once and for all, I cut the ties

It has come to an end, no more secrets, no more lies!

I see my reflection in this window

and look at myself

Come on reflection, tell me who I am!

Am I that pale?

So ill and anxious?

No, that's not me, but then...who is?

I look like a man

yet he looks like me

My father?!

Daddy, you are me!

Where are you? You're so quiet

Is it because of me?

You look so pale

so worried

I have to care for you

My biggest wish is to meet you!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Josephine:

You can't tell me what to do! Don't touch me! You're suffocating me!

I have no room for myself, to be who I am!

But...who am I?

Mr Daniels:

Stop whining! Listen to yourself! We gave you everything you needed! It doesn't matter where you came from. You're here now and you have two parents! Who has two parents nowadays?!

So stop complaining, you make your mother cry!

Josephine:

So what?! You never listen! Now listen for once, will you? I'm not like you, I'm different in so many ways! But you don't want to see it! You think you know me, but you don't know anything about me! You're such a senselss jerk!

Mr Daniels:

Josephine! I do not tolerate such behaviour! This is MY house and you're breaking all MY rules! I demand...

Josephine:

Fine! I'll go! (slams door)

*sigh*

I'm free...

 

 

 

c me 2009