The Pendant of Mór- chapter 5: Springtide

Their eyes are seeking for the sun
What will enter in their world?
Yearning for all what's about to come
An obligation or duty- I must do what was undone

Now that the sun and the moon are aligned
the sea reaches tremendous heights
I'm coming up for air
Cleansing all from captivity and despair

Holes with hidden stories
Homes of the Gifted, triumph the Phoenix!
Worlds of the Unseen, on earth, in heaven and in between
Every corner lightens up
and shows me its treasures

Now that the sun and the moon are aligned
the sea reaches tremendous heights
I'm coming up for air
Cleansing all from captivity and despair

The voice becomes louder, vagueness flies away
Sharp and sensitive, watch out for...me
As steady as a rock I enter this world
No other man will lead me astray

Now that the sun and the moon are aligned
the sea reaches tremendous heights
I'm coming up for air
Cleansing all from captivity and despair

The Pendant of Mór- chapter 4: Hypoxia

Josephine. Pic taken in Sonov, Czech Republic, 2009

Afraid to give in, afraid to begin

Begin where I know it can end

My breath is yours, you witness all my acts

I'm the sculpture made by your mind

The words in your head are carved in stone

The stifling you makes me feel alone

It's time to face the facts

You pull the strings, I'm a puppet from day One

Now I must face the fear, embrace what is near

Is my soul already sold?

Sitting by this window, my only portal to another life

The windows frame confines my dreams

Stiffens my being, narrows my mind

This airless room makes me collapse

Downstairs a mendacious silence

This softens off al of our truths

My only Father, where lies what belongs to me?

Give me air and set me free!

Experience did not shape me

Only your laws could have made me

Once and for all, I cut the ties

It has come to an end, no more secrets, no more lies!

I see my reflection in this window

and look at myself

Come on reflection, tell me who I am!

Am I that pale?

So ill and anxious?

No, that's not me, but then...who is?

I look like a man

yet he looks like me

My father?!

Daddy, you are me!

Where are you? You're so quiet

Is it because of me?

You look so pale

so worried

I have to care for you

My biggest wish is to meet you!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Josephine:

You can't tell me what to do! Don't touch me! You're suffocating me!

I have no room for myself, to be who I am!

But...who am I?

Mr Daniels:

Stop whining! Listen to yourself! We gave you everything you needed! It doesn't matter where you came from. You're here now and you have two parents! Who has two parents nowadays?!

So stop complaining, you make your mother cry!

Josephine:

So what?! You never listen! Now listen for once, will you? I'm not like you, I'm different in so many ways! But you don't want to see it! You think you know me, but you don't know anything about me! You're such a senselss jerk!

Mr Daniels:

Josephine! I do not tolerate such behaviour! This is MY house and you're breaking all MY rules! I demand...

Josephine:

Fine! I'll go! (slams door)

*sigh*

I'm free...

 

 

 

c me 2009

The Pendant of Mór- chapter 3: High Tide

Pic taken in Czech Republic, 2009

Mr Daniels:
Can I see her, sister Catherine?

SC:
Of course, follow me to her cradle.

(footsteps up the stairs)

Ssht...she's asleep..

Mr Daniels:
Isn't she beautiful?

Mrs Daniels:
Yes, she is...

SC:
Please, let's sit down and look at the transferpapers...

(turning pages and ballpoints scratching)

Mr Daniels:
Ok, I think we're all done..
You must know we appreciate the love and care you gave our little Josephine...

SC:
I did what I had to do.

Mr Daniels:
I think we should go. We have a long journey ahead of us. Goodbye Sister!

SC:
Oh, wait! I almost forget something...it's in the drawer.
This pendant is what she was wearing when she arrived here. I don't knnow what it is, but save it for her until she gets some older, okay?

Mr Daniels:
Uh..okay...

SC:
Now go! God bless you and the little Josephine!

SC:
Don't worry my dear, it'll be alright
In this endless sea there's land in sight
Drift along with the stream of life
You've got oceans of time
In God's hands you will thrive
Find your own shelter wherever you may roam
Gods House will be your sanctuary
Your seeds are now sown
Bring your harvest and you will be...free...

The Pendant of Mór-chapter 2: A Cold Autumn's Day

 

 

 

(Woman)
Just another autumn's day
but one has never been so cold
Let this tainted secret of mine never be unfold

(Sister Catherine)
One hour from now you'll be expected, my love
God made it happen, you were sent from above
Waiting for the hour, we can hold you in our arms
Be welcome: feel safe, fine and warm

We all prepared to make place for an innocent bairn
with the right to be wanted, cherished and raised
Now for you we will care
yes, for you we will care

Sister Ann, draw up her bed
Make her bottle warm and nice
Roaring storm, outside it is cold as ice

Here you are baby, with your red rose cheeks
Though you're vulnerable you're not weak
Do not open your eyes, you have all the time now
Sleep among us, let  your guard down

(Woman)
Through the streets I run
Run from all my thoughts
I left my baby
What have I done?!
I'm in a rush, feel dazed and worn out
Soothing my conscience, shouldn't feel any doubt
I trip and fall, feel cold to my bones
I fall into grace
Forgive me my sin, life left me no space

Your crying aches, echoes in my head
causing restless nights, waking in a sweat
And in day I dream about you, we sing eachother a lullaby
until the tears upon our cheeks forever dry, forever dry

I mourn for him, now mourn for you
Don't you cry I can't make it undo
Forlorn as I am, my choice has been made
Returning home, hope you will be okay

(Nuns)
The hour has come, she made up her mind
The future is clear, she set it right
What once was sent around can't be returned
She has lost the One, her paradise is burned

(Sister Catherine)
What do I see, hanging around your neck?
Silver shining in the dark
It appears to be some kind of a birthmark
A symbol of unknown origin
It might represent all that you are and will become
Once your descent will be unveiled
you will return Home

- You were so wrong!-

- Please forgive me, Josephine!-

- Will I ever see her again?-

- You will lose the child!-

- She will never find her way home!-

- The pendant will lead the way!-

 

c by me 2009

 

The Pendant of Mor- chapter one: The Oyster's Pearl

You are my place of refuge
But hate you nonetheless

A miracle has happened
but ashamed as I am
This feels like damnation to me
Hope you hear me Little One
Can't do this on my own
Grasping into the air
My hands are empty
Should I hang onto you?
We've been forsaken
Tell me what I need to do

They say your father has been taken
taken by Ceto
Will we ever discover why he had to go?
A fresh breeze softly touches me
In my ear he whispers
'She gives and she takes'
I see the smile upon his face
Should I hang onto you?
We've been forsaken
Tell me what I need to do

 

 

c 2009 Shanna

 

 

Sterrenstof

Het is tijd...tijd om wat sterretjes uit het stof te halen.
Deze sterretjes zijn als pareltjes. Oude of vergeten dingen die stof liggen te happen. Maar die het waard zijn ontdaan te worden van het stof zodat ze weer kunnen flonkeren.
Hoewel ik ook bezig ben met wat nieuwe dingen in mijn leventje, wil ik deze oude, kleine sterretjes toch laten schijnen en dus delen. Hier, op Shans Silent Screams. Shans Shining Stars, zoiets.

Oude liedjes van mijn eerste band Mantikhoras wil ik graag delen op mijn You Tube kanaal, maar hoe ik de tracks daar op plaats, ben ik nog niet helemaal achter. Ik heb wat hulp nodig, dus dat gaat even duren nog. Zodra ze online zijn, laat ik het weten.

Ook ben ik bezig met het schrijven van een autobiografie. 'Normaal gesproken' doen alleen beroemdheden dat, maar ik had de behoefte dit ook te doen. Gewoon, voor mezelf. Niemand die het ooit leest. Misschien als mijn aardse bestaan hier ophoudt. Hij staat op mijn laptop, dan weet je dat ;)
Ik noem het 'Sterrenstof'.

Verder wil ik 'The Pendant of Mor' ook weer op het internet zetten. Dankzij mijn ex verdween deze destijds op het net, maar ik zal de hoofdstukken (lyrics) opnieuw uitschrijven en nu, hier op mijn blog gaan plaatsen. Elke week één, zodat het verhaal langzaam aan compleet wordt, als je het leest. De eerstvolgende blog zal hoofdstuk één zijn.

Hoop dat je het leuk vindt om te lezen. Een fijne week, vol sterren! X

Facebook time!

Grab some wine
It's facebook time!
My daily time of pleasure

New friends in line
Makes me feel fine
showing all my 'treasures'

Don't need to tweet
in times of need
to fill this gap inside

When you drop the mask
Your profile pic
there's nowhere you can hide

Don't need to tweet
to  be your friend
Hello! I'm here, around the bend!

Get of your chair
and get some flair
Call your facebook-friend!

Get of your chair
now get some air
(I'm) two blocks away, around the bend!